We have been in Rapid City, SD for 59 days and we are slowly acclimating to our new home here. We are enjoying our condo in the hills where we often feed the deer and turkeys. We enjoy playing in the snow, sledding, and everything in between.
I am enjoying my work. For those that may not know, I am a student pastor at Fountain Springs Church. I have a team of 4 staff members and about 45 volunteers, we run a ministry of about 215 students (Middle School and High School) There are approximately 7,047 middle school and high school students in Rapid City.
We just finished up our Middle School and High School Winter Retreats where we had about 120 students participate. I am still blown away that I get to do this type of work. I realize that not a lot of people get the opportunity to shape the lives of students. I see my job as vitally important. I am building the future through these students and I have a window of opportunity to share truth, wisdom, and to inspire them to greatness.
I'm reading three books rights now that are challenging me to the core:
The combination of teaching on fear this past weekend in mountains of Wyoming, the words that I am reading both in scripture, and in these books are challenging me to the core. In Gary's book Crushing it he writes, "In my experience, good communication solves all things. I advise everyone in this predicament to confront the problem head-on. Sit down with the people you care most about and say, "I am going to do something I should have done ages ago. The only thing that stopped me was my fear of what you'd say, but you need to know that I'm over that now. I don't need your blessing, but I do need to know that I will have your support when I fail. Because I will. Not spectacularly, I hope, but definitely in the short term. In the long term, though, I'm going to win, and it would mean the world to me to know you've got my back and are hoping for my success, not waiting for my failure"
So that is what I'm going to do. Confront it.
A couple years ago I had a goal of writing a children's book where I asked you to back me financially and help support me chase the dream. With your help, I was able to self-publish and get the book out in the world. I have unsuccessfully tried the same thing with a couple adult books. This is where it gets personal. I want to write and publish many books on a range of topics (hints the callahan books dot net domain name) but have started and stopped so many times because I have a crippling fear of what you may say when it is finished. What's crazy is, I have one of the best support systems anyone could ever ask for but I allow fear to dominate my thoughts in this arena. I let fear have the final word. There, I said it. I'm scared of what you will think. Wow, that was so good to say out loud.
However, I will not let fear have the final word.
313 days from now you should have a book.
Do I have your support?